The End

I haven't posted for like .. a million years..
Oh Wells, this will most likely be my last post, so if there is anyone still reading my blog after this LOOONNGG absence.. you've hit lotto!
Today is a momentous day.. The deed has been done.. Just a few minutes ago.. With implications for my future, my path, my life.. and my walk with God..
When I began writing this blog, it was to share about the daily blessing and lessons that I have learnt from God as I went through one of the most difficult phases of my life... I wanted to share about what God had done, had been doing and was continually doing in my life..
Along the way, I stopped writing as it got to painful, to bitter, too difficult to write as I don't want my blog to be a list of rants on how unfair life is blah blah blah..

Nevertheless as i write this post, I'm looking toward a new day. A new Chapter in my life is looming. I am afraid of what it might bring. I am afraid of what I might become. I don't have all the answers and to be honest I don't know what are some questions I should ask.

I can't even say with all honestly that I totally trust God with my life and it's direction forevermore.

All I can say is that for tonight, my hope is in You Lord. My Future.
Help me as I face tomorrow and the day after, that I will be able to say the same things.

Here are the lyrics from the song 'You'll Come' from the I-Heart Revolution CD from United that was incidentally playing as I was writing this post.

Prechorus
As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

Chorus
You'll come let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit reign flood our hearts
With holy fire again

The Words Of Job

"Naked I came from my mother's womb,

and naked I will depart.

The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;

may the name of the Lord be praised." 1:21

Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? 2:10b

Thanking God

Waking up this morning, the first thing I thought was 'What can I thank God for?'
I'm not doing this cos' I'm like Mr. Oh-So-Optimistic/ Mr. Sunshine but was just trying to keep myself smiling throughout the day..
I've been talking to God lately, and at times it seems that everyone is kinda getting what they prayed/hoped for, but me?, I'm still praying... It's like it's raining everywhere except on me..
And honestly, it does get hard at times...
So back to this morning, I really couldn't find something to thank God for.. Well yes, I could thank God that I could still breathe, eat. walk etc... but I wanted to thank God for something that really meant something to me...
Got on the bus, and was still trying to think..
Then it hit me! I could thank God for the job I am in rite now.. Yes, I'm still praying for the dream job but at least I'm enjoying the job and the people that I work with...My co-workers in general at the cafe where I work are quite a nice bunch of people, and for those who are working, your co-workers and manager are really everything.. If the work environment is bad, going to work feels like torture, seriously...

And with that thought and prayer, it doesn't change the circumstance I am in, but the perspective with which I face it...

Why asian guys can't get white girls

Why asian guys can't get white girls

Was reading some of the forums in the SMH the other day. Came across this very interesting discussion topic.. 'Why Asian guys can't get White girls'.. Ian did asked me about this before ( oops!! ......secret out.. haha.. kidding lah..) but I did think it was an interesting topic to ponder, though not a length..
Watch the video, it's very funny and well edited, watching it it looks like the Main Star/ Director is a manga fan too.. haha..

Stories from Worship Leading.. Pt 2.7

Worship leading has always been an endless source of trials, stories and tribulations to me..

Today was no different. For some time the issue had been on my mind. I have been to worship evaluations countless of times, and many different aspects are often evaluated.. Yet in my heart the question was always there, how much is it really God's presence, how much is it the charisma of the worship leader, how much is it the technical aspects ie lighting, music etc... and many other things...
I'm sure that many people out there have an answer to these questions, yet I told God I needed an answer from Him alone that could solve my questions..

For my worship session today in CG (or LG as it is now called.. haha).. I had two musicians (not expert ones like Lem or JosWee) and throughout the whole session we did in a sense face many technical difficulties...But really kudos to Wern Jing and Edna for rising to the occasion!! :)

Yet, in spite of all the technical difficulties and all that, I can really say that I felt the presence of God move today. It was amazing, I do not lie when I say that this was the first time that I led and still manage to worship the Lord the way I did!! It was amazing, to lead worship and yet at the same time delight in it... All glory to God!

I always tell people that with expert musicians and great music, it's easier to worship the Lord, but when the presence of God moves inspite of the absence of such things, truly, for myself, All Glory to God !!

Drink, Drank, Drunk... and Other Stories from JG Advance

Yupz, back from the mountaintop experience...

JG Advance was like really, really fun. It was not too tiring or tedious but had the right balance of sharing and just chilling up there. Unlike convention where everything is rush here and there, JG Advance allowed for a more reflective mode.

God spoke to me during the sharing on the last night. It was about how when Peter saw the waves in the sea he started to doubt and as a result of that started sinking into the water again (straight after being the first human ever to walk on water!).. I guess the waves symbolised problems, and it is very true for myself that whenever I have this issues in front of me, I tend to lose focus on the one who should be focused upon, Jesus.

It's not just the job and all that, but also issues and experiences that I find it hard at times to let go to God. I don't want to move on and just serve, serve, serve without clearing some of this issues, as this can potentially be harmful in later days if not dealt with.

Yet I felt God was telling me that at times I have let this issues consume me. From the inside out. In a bad way at times. And I was challenged to let God deal with some of the issues, yet not sweeping them under the carpet and pretending they don't exists, but trusting God with them.

On a lighter note, the fellowship at JG Advance totally rocks!! Seriously!! We were really earth-moving, caretaker-awakening ppl !! Haha.. To the caretaker of Camp Tamborine (who if in the remotest chance reads this blog) I apologise on my part for the racket...

What racket... ?!?!??!?!

WELL>...

There were a few groups of us playing in the dining room... The scrabble nerds (though I think they had the last laugh when the caretaker came in. haha) ..Wen An, Lem, Miao Miao and few others, the Uno Gang led by the infamous KaKa Kan, and last but not least the Indian Poker gang..
Cut a long story short the loser had to drink half a jug of water (Yes, you read correctly, WATER.. being the Godly ppl we are, we didn't use the normal liquids most ppl might use in poker.. haha) ... And yours truly drowned about 1.5 jugs of water.. My stomach was so bloated it looked like I had twins!! Later we moved to push ups, where my luck didn't change either and I did the most push ups of all! Truly a mountain-top experience, beats fitness first anytime!

1st pic is a group pic of us with the card on our heads.. Cool eh??

2nd pic is ME! Drinking, drinking, gone..

3rd pic is of the boy friend of Pei Yin, wat's his name again?? haha

4th is of Mr Xi Liu, Aussie Aussie Aussie!! Oi Oi Oi!!

Similarity= All of us are CCM Presidents.. Sigh.. the burdens of presidency...

All in All, JG Advance was a success!! ... Yam Seng ! ! (Cheers)